DNR Status Revised Downwards

Kay was already dnr for some situations. The rules have now been formally changed so that she's dnr for more situations. You can read something into that I think.

She has been put back on a controlled breathing program. Her blood gases have stabilised at more acceptable levels. But she's back to needing high ventilation pressures. Thus the risk of blowing a lung, thus the change in dnr status to "do nothing if she blows a lung".

Again, we're terrified, the electricity of fear coursing through my body. But we continue to feel that Kay's still fighting and as long as she's doing it, we can do it too.

On the plus side, her white cell count rose today and her red cell count remained stable. The white cell count is not of any great signficancce, yet. But the fact of an increase is not negative.

To be realistic, she has a very small chance of pulling through. But we're willing her on and on. I put my head against her head and pour all the energy and will power I have into her. Maybe it's like a fish trying to change the direction of an oil tanker, but I'm doing my best / we're doing our best and maybe, just maybe, it will make a difference. Hopefully it will end up being a fractal effect, a small change having large (positive) consequences.

The more fishes there are, the more chance of changing the direction of the oil tanker.